The simple anticipation of writing this post was something to already make me emotional. I lost my grandma over a year ago. As most people who have ever lost someone dear to them may know is that they never leave you. Never. Recently I've been experiencing shooting pains to my heart because I've realized that I just want to talk to my nana. That's all. I would go in her room and sit on her bed while she was watching t.v. and we'd sometimes just sit in silence or talk about random things. What I do know is that she loved it. She would tell my aunts on the phone that I would always "keep her company" That in itself made me pause from writing because it makes me so emotional thinking about it. My nana raised me, alongside with my mom and brothers. I spent most of my life by her side, she was my mom and still is my mom. I don't really have a reasoning behind this post beyond the fact that I wish more than anything to talk to her. I wanted to write it out because it's on my mind so often. She is the embodiment to what love is to me. I am so glad I had her. I love you forever. And even that. Even that doesn't seem like enough.
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