Transitional periods

There is a moment of liberation during the beginning of being in a life limbo. Possibilities are endless and well, you just have free time, finally. Then, the free time is too much and routine is created by freedom. I'm in a phase of retraction. Retraction from things I was once magnetized to, people I would spend a lot of time with, and places I went to almost every week. I think being out school puts my mind in a lull. I'm not here to say that I am the most intelligent human being and I require intelligent conversations all day, every day. But, I require substance, some form. After a while, conversations turn into complaints about being unsatisfied where you are, work gossip, and along with that, people gossip. If it's not that, it's uninhibited silliness that requires a lot more energy than I seem to muster up these days.

I am currently in a huge transitional period in my life, a time of limbo, a place where I have a degree and I could go towards higher education or towards a career path or life experience. Those are MY mind's options, at least. Let me just put this out there, transitional times are not fun, not even a little bit. Why? Because you have nothing to look forward to. So, my solution: make things that you will look forward to. Even the smallest of events, like concerts or a day in LA or trips. Keep yourself looking forward to something until you reach where you want to be. Keep yourself in good spirits with people who make you happy, genuinely happy. The people who allow you to be retracted and will listen to you about why you are this way, because if they know you, they know you'll jump out of it. One of my biggest peeves is when someone doesn't take the time to actually sit down and talk with you, but assumes that they know something is wrong with you. Sure, your natural behavior may shift, but don't just think it's because of a presumption you have about them. Ask them. Spend time with them. Don't leave them be and when you do talk to them try to spew up an encouraging word or two. Encouragement comes from spending time with someone, listening to them, and loving them through it all. It's easy to leave someone be and not sit with them when they aren't at their best. This is a positive thing to look at with transitional periods, you have that process of filtration. The filtration of relationships where you give and either someone gives back or they don't. I think that this process is extremely important for your own growth because when making little plans of things you want to look forward to, you realize who you want to look forward with. The people who sit with you through it all. From this transition you become grateful. I started this post semi-stress, and now as I am writing this, I am thinking of the people that I have made plans with, and who have just sat with me during the moments where I haven't been at my best. Long live these relationships. Transitions always end. But people who are with you during these periods, don't.

You will be where you want to be. Just do your best and try to stay happy. That's all you can ever do in life, really.