Life like honey

I have recently started to take action in the life I want to have. Now, I know that sounds silly, because I think we always assume that we always have control over the life we lead because, well, it's OUR life. However, in my case, and I'm sure others can relate, some times, you feel as though you're not living the life you thought you ought to be having. Obviously, I see my life not in Southern California, but for the time being I have to work with it. As much as I would love to be that carefree, free-spirited character that is portrayed in a lot of films, I can't just get up and leave without feeling financially comfortable. I just can't do that. I think life works in ways we understand after waiting. I learned that after my episodes of anxiety and panic attacks. Now, I try to make the best of the wait. But, as I noted earlier, this is a very recent thing.

There was something extremely exhilarating about graduating. A different sense of freedom, I think. I genuinely felt like I pleased everyone I needed to and now it was time for me. The older I get (and let me tell you, I have always been a relatively old woman at heart), the more I long for simplicity and nature. So, hikes are a good thing.

Yesterday evening, Lina, Ali, Carl, and I decided to hike "top of the world." We did a sunset hike because Ali had to randomly work this Sunday, but it turned out to work for the best. We spent the evening talking, laughing, and just overall bonding because there is something nature does to glue souls together that nothing else will. We ate dinner, drank wine, and lounged on the sofas afterwards, drunk with happiness. This is the type of life I want to lead. It took me some time, but it is happening. The fact that I'm taking a graphic design course might be helping the fact that I am finding my path in this life. Long live the sweet moments that make life like honey. I want to measure my life by the amount of sunrise and sunsets I get to experience in my lover's arms. That surpasses any passing activity I could do otherwise. This life is a good one.