A 2015 kinda post

I figured a new year post was necessary, especially since a lot of changes are about to happen! I feel like this year is really going to be a transformation into a type of independence I have been mentally preparing myself for. A type of independence that I can share alongside someone and one that will cater to things I've always wanted. At a young age I've always wanted to be a writer, although in a way semi-discouraged to. Not like, you can't do it, but I am a part of a family of logical-realists. They are intellects. My brothers are scholars and thrive in academic settings, majors in the arts have always been looked at as semi-unrealistic. They don't say this in a hateful way, they say it in the way everyone thinks of the arts. It's going to be hard to find a job, you can't do much with it. All that kind of stuff. In reality all I want to do is own an apothecary shop in Portland while freely writing. I said something along the lines of that to my brother and he said, "you have to aim bigger." That's what my life has been filled with. I trust their opinions and I know they are looking out for me, but sometimes you look at a major and you decide to just do it. That's how I feel currently about an MFA in writing. Who knows where the future will lead me, but my voice is finally forming. 

This is what I am hoping for, step one: the bay area. See what I can do there, find opportunities to enjoy my life in new surroundings. Step two: Portland. I'd love to do grad school up there, especially because both my partners (dev + ali, obviously) can see their life up there too. This is and has started off to being a very exciting year. I am planning on sticking to my life of health, and taking it further with cooking a lot more as well as finding new outputs to exercise my energy. I want to find new stimulants for my mind, I want to always push for mental epiphanies. It's been way to long since I've danced in the sky, and there is only that type of high when pursuing new things and finding a passion among it.