However, when you break your friendships down, you realize a few things about friends and about friends. I know this sounds psychotic, but, there are just some people you know in your life where everything is effortless and you feel like you can be completely yourself. My two closest friends, Ari and Devon are not people I see the most in life nor the ones I speak to the most. However, they are the ones I am able to be myself completely. Not to say I can't do that with anyone else, but I have a history with these ladies. They have known me since I was so insecure that I chopped off my hair and painted my face wild colors. They know my relationship background and they know what makes my heart quiver and ache with pain. They accept me through it all. Not once do I have to stop and explain myself or a joke I've said. Nor do we have to worry about offending or hurting each others' feelings. It's just easy. We lift each other up. There is no comparison but only praising when it comes to these ladies. When one of us starts to bring ourselves down in the face of comparison, we can confidently switch that flip because we know each other so well and see each other for how we are.
I know this is all very random, but recently I have had alone time with both of them and I realized how damn easy life is alongside them. We don't have to be in a happy mood all the time, we don't have to apologize for bad moods or worry about looking like a bitch, because we already know. We know. I don't know why but there is therapy in that for me. There is unconditional happiness in there as well. The fact that someone can see all your sides and not mutter a single bad thing about you to anyone else gives more validation than I could put in words. To say I'm grateful for these two isn't enough to get my point across. This is my family that I chose. Thank you for always taking care of me.
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