Balancing acts. The reoccurring instances we, well, I, constantly face. I've never been that great at balancing my time. Either it's too much work or too much play. I have gotten slightly better at balance the older I've gotten, but that is purely based off of basically being forced into a scheduled life. As always, my life is full of constant realizations, I am realizing who I should spend time with versus people that fill up time. Sometimes we spend too much time with people who don't get us and that ultimately becomes draining. I've realized that relationships are full of cycles. Cycles of time together and time apart, however, some cycles usually end during the time apart and when you reunite, it's just not the same. That's not anyone's fault. As humans we are constantly changing and along with that so are our views. If you are able to have a few close friends where nothing changes when you are together (ie; effortless conversation, constant laughter) then you're set, you're good.
My balancing acts are now consisting of giving myself personal time and allowing time for the people who really want to spend time with me. Not to say when someone asks to get lunch with you, you shouldn't give it to them, but when your free time is scarce, that's when you realize you need to be with the people who fill you up, not drain you. It's a constant lesson in life. I have been going out and socializing more, however, I've appreciated my hermit-like lifestyle after a bout of activities. This also solidifies my relationships with certain people. Effortlessly living alongside someone makes life feel like a god damn dream, and I don't think it's bad when you feel as though your life is a dream. Everyone deserves that feeling.
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