bones

A recent topic of conversation has been a topic of conversation my entire life.
it's been a conversation that has bonded many girls together
it has been a conversation that has been societally acceptable and, honestly, a conversation that is somewhat expected.

The deprecation of a woman's body.

Why?
Why is this something that we allow ourselves to build bridges with one another about?
What is this obsession about health fads and thigh gaps.

To be completely honest- I am not totally secure with my body.
It's something I am working on and working for.
I am striving for it to be healthy, but it's a journey.
That being said, when I hear the conversation about "I'm not eating carbs" - 'Oh! I'm so proud of you, I'm going to join you on this! Motivation!'
I can't help but get angry with myself for ever thinking silly thoughts like that in the past- the thought about cutting out something essential to my body. Something that energizes it the way that it does. I forever thank anthropology and books for letting me see the light and truth of food.

I have openly spoken against weddings, not because I hate love or anything like that- but, because it's a sacred ritual that we spray painted neon pink.
We took the sacred nature out of it.
We became image hungry, controlling- over one day.
A day about not you, but about your partner.
A bride has become a token of vanity and I see this day to day
"3 months until the wedding.. I can't be bad" (just eat the damn banana bread!)

Why not?
Your fiance proposed to you like this,
you will probably look like this after your wedding day.
Every photo in your house besides your wedding day pictures you will look this way.
You will look like a beautiful creature that is seen as beautiful because of your happiness not because of the visibility of your bones.
We need to protect our bones, they break easily.

I'm not trying to spread a message against weddings, because they are beautiful. I was recently in one where I was literally sobbing the entire time because the love I witnessed was so real and pure. They're beautiful. But, I just don't like the symbol they have become to a large portion of society. The glitter overpowers the heart, and it should be the other way around.

My main frustration lies in the idea that girls decide to bond over unhealthy habits rather than true passions- gossip, rather than personal heart stories. This obviously is not every female, not even close, but the margin I am placed in my life right now has me surrounded by a lot of voices speaking nonsensical truths about the temples they have been placed in. Flesh is the very thing that we will allow to destroy us, as we destroy the flesh of animals by the movement of our teeth- something that they have used as a source of survival... A vicious cycle.