modern day education.

It's hard for me to comprehend the authority given to someone who doesn't spend the time to get to know you.
We are told, "trust them, they will help you, they will be there for you."
Then-
you see that isn't the case.
It's the romanticized vision of an organization trying to entice you into their group.
Even if it's centered around education, even it's supposedly progressive.
You sit there alone, observing.
So many idealized words flow through the atmosphere of lectures
just so the ones you are supposed to be "mentoring" - "coaching" through an experience feels as lost and alone as ever.
It's amazing that there are never any comments made about you successfully doing something,
but the moment there's a slip up, a slew of emails are sent about the mediocre details that were missing, covered with exclamation points and emojis
as if that is the redeemable quality that we have been waiting for.
We would understand if you spoke to us beyond the perimeters of a observing our every move,
beyond these pointless forced reflections that do not make us think, but make us feel anxious.
we don't watch anyone else's because it feels like an invasion of privacy.
a mentor that can't even spell my name right.
who favors the students whose parents she knows are watching her.
nothing about this is just.
progressive
memorable.
creating an army of mediocrity that you don't think you fit into.
when you become the lieutenant of the small details of mistakes that ruin a perfectly good kid's day.
but you don't know that they are anxious and scared to speak up
you scare them.
but we're supposed to be greater than that, with idols you forced us to seek who treat us the same as them.

how many breaking points can happen in 9 months.
what is the point of words when the actions are so clearly there.